I Am Whole! I Am Complete!
9/13/2011 12:00:00 AM
Every moment of every day we are given the opportunity to start over. Most of the time I don’t take that opportunity. I’m so entrenched in the anger or the drama of life that I don’t even see this as a possibility. My ego and Monkey Mind are so committed to the things about myself that I don’t want and yet there is a strong pull, an awareness of whom I can be. In this moment I can choose to be pain free even if everything around me is giving me evidence that my life is painful. When I can step out of the illusion I step into freedom and I step into all the love and abundance that is surrounding me every moment of the day. I’ve seen clients come in wracked with physical pain and grief step away from that and be pain free. I’ve also seen them take all that pain right back the moment they walked out my door.
On a simple level, our brains are looking to repeat and re-create what they know. So, it’s up to our consciousness to teach our brains what we want to feel. If you know abusive relationships, failure, or being a victim then you’re going to create more of that. When I catch myself in a negative behavior pattern I remind myself that I don’t want those thoughts or feelings any more and I turn my awareness away from those thoughts. In other words, I distract myself from the habit of being that I’m drawn to. It takes consciousness to do this, an awareness of who we are and who we want to be.
For example, my crazy mind woke up this morning in a bad place. I was very upset, my heart was racing and I was ridiculously angry. I woke up feeling incomplete, ashamed, embarrassed, and frightened. I reminded myself that dreams are the brain’s way of processing. It has been pointed out to me before that we are the dream. So, if someone is trying to harm you in the dream then the question to ask is, “How am I harming myself”. Through this I discovered that I felt “less then”, inferior, and not good enough. I was coming at life from a place of lack and I was gathering up evidence to prove that I wasn’t good enough, that what I wanted was never going to be, and that I was a failure. I don’t know about you but I don’t want that to be my reality so I halted those thoughts and challenged them with a passionate mantra. I said to my crazy-mind that “I am whole. I am complete”! I chanted it over and over again, with great fervor at times, sometimes practically yelling because my crazy was winning. I AM WHOLE! I AM COMPLETE! Suddenly, I felt better and the crazy went away.
Pay enough attention to the crazy-mind ego to find out what it is saying. This part of you is only there because it wants to take care of you and keep you safe and familiar. Then, turn away from it and turn those crazy thoughts into statements confirming the opposite. Shout them from the rooftops so you can hear them and watch the transformation unfold.